Yeah, I just - I know they're there? Like, when I rewatch and/or someone points them out, I see it. I just don't tend that way automatically, I guess. *shrugs* I don't really ship any of them especially so I think I just bask in all of them being awesome with each other (as in, being angsty and shitty to each other, mostly).
Well, I discovered the idea when I was talking to a kinky friend of mine. I was concerned about it, actually - seeing Cas beat up Dean isn't the worst sort of thing (and you're right, that stuff is SUPER popular in fandom), and she was talking me through accepting it as part of my nature and that it didn't make me a bad person. And she mentioned sadistic tendencies, which I balked at, because I really couldn't hurt a flea myself, physically, and that's when she added the voyeurism to it, and that's when it all sort of aligned itself in my brain, which made things a lot easier to accept.
Re: 9.10 Road Trip
Well, I discovered the idea when I was talking to a kinky friend of mine. I was concerned about it, actually - seeing Cas beat up Dean isn't the worst sort of thing (and you're right, that stuff is SUPER popular in fandom), and she was talking me through accepting it as part of my nature and that it didn't make me a bad person. And she mentioned sadistic tendencies, which I balked at, because I really couldn't hurt a flea myself, physically, and that's when she added the voyeurism to it, and that's when it all sort of aligned itself in my brain, which made things a lot easier to accept.